Continuing blargh
Apr. 25th, 2020 06:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bladesparkIt's very frustrating, having awful, shit, cranky days for no goddamn reason.
I mean, a lot of my being cranky was correlated with getting no time off from the goober child, but then I got all yesterday off, and I am just ready to murder the world today. I don't know, maybe it's that yesterday wasn't restful. I tried to use my time off to do All The Things and that was maybe not a good idea.
Some of the cranky is probably also continuing hormones. My "issue" has been fixed, but the fixing more or less kicked off actual, mostly-normal menstruation again, so I'm having That Time Of The Month cranky too. I've been having hormonal cranky since mid-January, and I am SO DONE with that.
But some days just...are bad. And some are good. And there's not a lot of rhyme or reason to any of it, it feels like. Which just drives me bananas. How can I fight this and try to not be a pit of depression when I can't find causes for the depression? It makes me feel completely powerless, and I don't like it at all.
Which is depressing.
Oh yay.
I mean, a lot of my being cranky was correlated with getting no time off from the goober child, but then I got all yesterday off, and I am just ready to murder the world today. I don't know, maybe it's that yesterday wasn't restful. I tried to use my time off to do All The Things and that was maybe not a good idea.
Some of the cranky is probably also continuing hormones. My "issue" has been fixed, but the fixing more or less kicked off actual, mostly-normal menstruation again, so I'm having That Time Of The Month cranky too. I've been having hormonal cranky since mid-January, and I am SO DONE with that.
But some days just...are bad. And some are good. And there's not a lot of rhyme or reason to any of it, it feels like. Which just drives me bananas. How can I fight this and try to not be a pit of depression when I can't find causes for the depression? It makes me feel completely powerless, and I don't like it at all.
Which is depressing.
Oh yay.