So I really want to babble today...

[bladespark]

In every heart, there is a room,
A sanctuary safe and strong,
To heal the wounds of lovers past,
Until a new one comes along.

I spoke to you in cautious tones.
You answered me with no pretense.
But still I feel I've said too much.
My silence is my self defence.

And every time I've held a rose,
It seems I've only felt the thorns.
And so it goes, and so it goes,
And so will you soon I suppose.

But I would choose to be with you,
That's if the choice were mine to make.
But you can make decisions too,
And you can have my heart to break.

But if my silence, made you leave,
Then that would be my worst mistake.
So I will share this room with you,
And you can have my heart to break.

And this is why my eyes are closed.
It's just as well, for all I've seen.
And so it goes, and so it goes,
And you're the only one who knows.

So I would chose to be with you,
That's if the choice were mine to make.
But you can make decisions too,
And you can have this heart to break.

And so it goes, and so it goes,
And you're the only one who knows.



Why am I in such a philosophical mood of late? I've meandered on in LJ and over at my forum... but I just can't manage to discuss things like this in person, or even one-on-one in chats very often. Why can I always find the words for soliloquy and never for conversation? I guess I'm just not a verbal person. I have a hard time expressing myself so often. And yet I sit down to write, and it just flows. *sighs*

The song, by the way, is in there becuase I love that song, and because it says something else about why I can't come up with the right words... when something really matters to me, when there's somebody I care about, it's just that much harder. I should be able to trust, but it's hard. Talking about relationships is dificult. Saying how you feel is one of the hardest things to say, whether what you want to say is "I love you" or "I'm sorry, I don't."

There are only one or two people out there that I've discussed any of the things that really mean anything to me with. I guess to you I have to say thanks for being there.