Ranting

[bladespark]

Why must it be this way?

I won't ask "why is it this way" because the answer to that is fairly apparent. I just need to rail agianst the universe a bit, and against our STUIPID, annoying, frustrating culture.

WHY are emotions bushed aside as unimportant? Why is how we feel given no consideration? If I say I'm making a decision because of an emotion, I am automatically short-sighted and stupid. AUGH! Of course making decisions based on nothing but emotion isn't usually a good idea, but if a thing fulfills you, and makes you truly happy, should you not pursue it, even if it's seemingly illogical? I moved to a state where I knew exactly three people, just stuffed everything I own into a U-haul and left, and it was because of an emotion! And yes I did all the sensible things too, but if I'd chosen what to do with my life without including how I FEEL in the decision, I'd be living at home still, trying to get a degree, and by now I'd probably have gone postal and killed somebody, or fallen apart and had to be sent to the loony bin. (Probably the latter, honestly. I was on the shivering edge of a nervous breakdown there, and inclined more to curl up under the bed than to go in search of weaponry.) I HAD to get out, and there was NO logical reason behind it at all. I "should" have gotten a degree when I was just one semester away from getting it, I "should" have not taken out a loan, and just stayed with my parents. Every purely "logical" train of thought said to stay where I was, but following that kind of logic would have ruined me completely.

There is nothing wrong, or less, or worse about a decision based in emotional needs. Being friends with somebody when you get no measureable benefit, and when it may even cost you time and money, is still worthwhile, for purely emotional reasons, and that's not somehow stupid, or short-sighted.

In fact really, when you get right down to it, emotions really aren't illogical at all. They're not irrational or beyond all understanding. But we treat them as if they are, and we're afraid of them, and even hate them! They make perfect sense, if we'd only take the time to know them, and understand them. They happen for straightforward reasons, and they're GOOD, we need them!