Ups and downs.
Mar. 19th, 2019 11:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bladesparkThe last few days I'd been riding high. Life was mostly going really well, and having everyone be very positive and supportive about me going by Aidan now was great. I had some great sex even. :3
Yesterday crashed hard. Poor life choices, general circumstances, my brain being unable to stay happy for long, whatever. It was a miserable day in which I sat in and did nothing and then ended up getting drunk and just... Bleh. Unfun.
Today I have to get out of the house, at least. Got a million errands to run and it's my day off from having the goober, so hopefully it'll go a little better. Still kinda debating if I want to buy more of the strawberry cider I'm obsessed with while I'm out. I can, but after being an idiot with booze last night, it feels like maybe I should give that a few days, maybe? Wish I knew for sure how long it will stay available.
But I definitely need to go clothes shopping, get a haircut, mail a package, buy broccoli, and have lunch out somewhere. Curry again, maybe?
It's funny... I don't know. Huge changes happen, life still goes on the same as ever. I felt that way after getting married. I was married! And nothing actually changed? It felt so surreal for a long time.
Yesterday crashed hard. Poor life choices, general circumstances, my brain being unable to stay happy for long, whatever. It was a miserable day in which I sat in and did nothing and then ended up getting drunk and just... Bleh. Unfun.
Today I have to get out of the house, at least. Got a million errands to run and it's my day off from having the goober, so hopefully it'll go a little better. Still kinda debating if I want to buy more of the strawberry cider I'm obsessed with while I'm out. I can, but after being an idiot with booze last night, it feels like maybe I should give that a few days, maybe? Wish I knew for sure how long it will stay available.
But I definitely need to go clothes shopping, get a haircut, mail a package, buy broccoli, and have lunch out somewhere. Curry again, maybe?
It's funny... I don't know. Huge changes happen, life still goes on the same as ever. I felt that way after getting married. I was married! And nothing actually changed? It felt so surreal for a long time.
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Date: 2019-03-19 10:41 pm (UTC)Getting out of the house, if you can, is good. Even if you don't feel better, doing errands is helpful to get done.
Oh, I forgot to circle back with you--what is the name of that strawberry cider?
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Date: 2019-03-19 10:43 pm (UTC)And I did get out, and do feel better! Though "out" was full of small frustrations as well.
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