Falling down, falling down...

Everything has just gone all to pieces... Last entry I was all happy. In my mind I'd just sealed a good friendship, and had an enjoyable evening.

And then I find that despite my attempt to explain things here, everyone assumed that Wulfy and I getting hitched meant we were in love, or something.

I said I was "medium" serious, and by that I meant that we are good friends and nothing more. And now I wish I could take it back, though I can't, and it woudln't help now...

Cajun... can I say I'm sorry? Can I say my feelings for you haven't changed? I want to talk to you, and I feel like you've shut me out. Wulfy is a friend... nothing more. Nothing less either, and I care about him, but he can't replace you. I'd have said yes if you asked to marry me in IRC... but I thought you didn't want that. Can you forgive me? And can you forgive me for not making the effort to be with you at BC? I thought you wanted me to back off... I'm sorry I read you wrong.

And please, anyone else reading this, if you see Cajun, tell him I'm sorry?