Let it be.

I find that though things have not worked out as I might have wished, I've reached a point of peace. I will enjoy what happiness I can, and not mourn for the joy I cannot have. As often at such times, somebody else said it better first.


When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comforts me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Not a good day.

Today's events in brief.

1. Signed check for $400+ for first month's rent and deposit. I hate not having money.

2. My van door dented so deep it's almost folded in half. Argh. (Van was parked at the time, the neighbor just backed into it, nobody was hurt.)

3. Had to go to work. 'nuff said.

4. Called Wufly, cell phone died on me in mid-conversation.

5. Recharged phone.

6. Called back, line busy.

7. Feeling hideously lonely, tried calling somebody else. (Not going to mention his name and ruin his reputation.)

8. Had the following conversation:
Me: Hello, who's speaking?
X: This is ______
Me: Welll hi, this is Stephanie. I was bored at work and thought I'd give you a call.
X: This is a business phone, Ma'am. I'm going to hang up now. *click*

9. Sat around in stunned depression for the next two hours, not quite believing that a good friend had given me his business phone and then acted so rudely when I called it. (He'd better have a good explanation for this when I can talk to him, is all I have to say... Grrrrrrr....)

10. Called Wulfy again, got to talk for 5 stinking minutes before my phone died.

11. Seriously contemplated throwing the phone across the room. Must kill Nokia and/or AT&T.

12. Got off of work at last went home and waited for 11 when I could log on, alternately wanting to curl up on the bed and sob or claw something to pieces.

13. Am now on-line and feeling a little bit better. Why can't real life be more like IRC?