Auction is over

Well, Fluttershy ended. $822. Which at least bumps it up over minimum wage for my sewing time, though without taking into account all the time I've spent taking photos, posting, advertising, etc. But eh. Decent, in any case.

Oh, and to those of you who kept insisting, over and over, that I would make thousands off of this... I really hope that someday there's something seemingly impossible that you want very badly, and people around you tell you that it is possible, and you're going to get it, and then in the end you don't, so you know exactly how I feel right now. So very many people said it that despite all my arguing, I'd almost started to believe it really could happen. Well, it didn't. And so now instead of being happy I got what I first reasonably expected, I'm sad because I didn't get what I was lead to hope for.

The Disney ending DOESN'T always happen out here in the real world, and when you go "Oh don't be so negative, I'm sure you'll get what you want" or "You're bound to get it, you deserve it" you're not actually doing anybody any favors. You're just setting them up to crash harder by making them expect things that aren't by any means guaranteed. It's the exception, not the rule, for people to get what they deserve.

Oh, and next time you want to tell me I deserve thousands, have the fricking money in your hand and be willing to spend the thousands yourself, otherwise shut up.

Anyhow, I'll leave it at that and not rant on any more. I am fairly satisfied with this result, but I will NOT be doing any more pre-mades for a very long time, I have too much else on my plate, and it's really not worth the bother if I'm not going to make any more money than a regular commission would bring in.

Mini gray fox

Or grey fox. Apparently either spelling can be used, which is just plain sloppy. Curse you, English language!

Anyhow. Pics!



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A final word on certain melodramatic subjects.

Fans sure seem to think, sometimes, that the people they're fans of owe them something. I see fans all the time, insisting that a creator needs to do X, Y, or Z for no better reason than the fan thinks it's a good idea.

I rather profoundly disagree. For part one of why, I'll just let Neil Gaiman do some talking. http://journal.neilgaiman.com/2009/05/entitlement-issues.html

Go, read.

Okay, you done?

Now let me add something. As an artist I am also a human being. I have feelings. I have a RIGHT to have those feelings. I can feel however the frick I happen to feel. Which means, by the way, that when a fan says something that upsets me, I'm not going to stop being upset just because it's a fan that said it! I get upset when my close friends and family say things, sometimes. Just because you're some random person I've never even spoken to who has left me a comment on a picture once, that doesn't mean you're somehow above them!

In addition, particularly here in MY space, that is on MY FA account, on MY DA account, on MY livejournal, I can express those feelings. I have the right to! If I want to say that my fans have upset me, I CAN.

Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe you'll all get some upset feelings too. Maybe I should just shut up and never let anybody know I have emotions at all. I tried that for a while. Maybe I shouldn't be writing this right this minute. But I AM a human being and I DO feel those things and sometimes I just want to let it out and TELL people how they make me feel.

Now as a fan you have some rights too. You also have a right to feel whatever you want. You can feel upset. You can feel hurt. You can feel you disagree with me, or you can feel you agree. But you know what? You have NO RIGHT WHATSOEVER to demand that I stop expressing my feelings. I do not owe you anything just because you're a fan. I don't even owe you politeness if I don't want to give it. You don't earn anything by watching me, except the ability to see my stuff. There is no agreement beyond that!

You certainly have the right to stop watching me, of course, if that's what you want. I've unwatched people who said something that upset me before. So feel free to. Or you can keep watching me and just not read my journals, or heck you can read my journals and get pissed off, and you can even rant and rave at me in the comments, but when you do THAT, I'm going to start exercising some additional rights I have, and you are going to get your ass banned.