Burthday blues.

[bladespark]

I felt like rambling on some more tonight. I keep thinking about my next birthday. It's coming up soon, on June 21, and for the first time I can remember I'm not looking forward to my birthday. I kind of find myself thinking "a year older, whoopdeedo." I'm going to be 24 and there are days when I feel too old. Most of my friends are 18-20, which is probably why. And for once I'm not having any kind of party. Even when I was a missionary my companion and I would do some little thing, but this year, nada. My parents aren't throwing me one, though I might get cake with dinner that night I suppose, and I don't feel like throwing one for myself. I can't think of anything to do, and I can't think of anyone to invite really that could come. Maybe one or two, but what kind of party has just one or two people? All of my good friends have gotten themselves married or moved away, or else are people I just know on-line. So anyhow, I'm not finding anything much to look forward to. Another year gone by, that's all.

So today I'm feeling a touch down about all that, and as if to add insult to injury my website had gone over its bandwidth AGAIN! What I want to know is, if so many people are accessing my site, why do none of them sign the guest-book? *sigh*

So I've decided to try and raise the funds to get the site upgraded. Heck, if Martiza can get the money for a new computer, I at least have a chance of raising the sixty or so it takes to pay for a year's worth of the premium service, right? I can wish anyhow. *grin* That would be a bit of a birthday present right there.

Comments

[alfedenzo.livejournal.com]

What's the bandwidth cap right now?

[bladespark.livejournal.com]

Well, it says 600 megs a month. I'm not sure how this works, since they must also track it on a daily basis... *shrug*

[cajunfox.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*
aw.. im sorry your havin a bad day :/
*hugs again*
dont worry, im sure you'll get some donations :)

[bladespark.livejournal.com]

*hugsback*
Thanks Cajun. I can never stay depressed for long, I'm not a depressive personality, but lately I've sure been down a lot. Don't know what I'd do without friends like you.