Newsflash!

[bladespark]

In case you people somehow managed to miss the last one, here it is again: I am emotionally unstable right now. This is not going to change any time soon. You poke me, you're equally likely to get a "meh" of angstful disinterest, to have me fall over giggling madly, or to have me bite the finger off.

If you can't cope with that, I suggest you remove me from your friends list, and avoid having any contact with me until next fall, by which time (I pray to God!) I will have managed to get on top of this @$%@#$ depression.

(How many times am I going to have to say this before it sinks in? Eesh! Is it that my apparent rationality at times causes you all to forget or something?)

Comments

[2dlife.livejournal.com]

You are right. Scientology is missing key elements of religion and is bizzare enough that it's difficult to fit to other models. He's also right. Nothing in the current perception of Scientology prevents it from later gaining respect. Other factors may do so, but just being considered weird by the majority of the world's population isn't one of them. The fact that they use brainwashing techniques or a pyramid scheme of ascension levels is probably going to be a primary cause of their undoing, in my opinion. Although, not knowing about their belief system, I can't really make further judgements on how it even all fits together.

We all respond to different things and unfortunately use our own experiences to guide how we perceive other people to perceive us. If you ask many of us, I think that a few would say that they were acknowledging how you felt by addressing the root of it: a single comment. In my worldview, if I'm upset about something and later find that it was just a big misunderstanding, I feel better. It seems, however, you would have liked us to address your feelings directly, but please understand that it is hard for us (I should say, me) to consider feelings in a vacuum. Maybe it's a guy thing, maybe I just repress my feelings and compartmentalize until they don't exist anymore. For me emotions have causes and it's hard to separate the two. I know I come across as dismissive, and I'm sorry. However, I really have a hard time seeing your depth of feeling since it's beyond the scope of my own experiences and attempts that would, for me, make me feel better in this case, seem to only hurt you more.

But please understand that we care... and even though we only come across as more callous and totally unhelpful, we have to try. Because that's what friends do, even in their bumbling ways, they must forge ahead with attempts at support. And that's probably the biggest sign we could put up that we want you back.

[bladespark.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *smiles*

I think the issue was that I was seeing everyone's attempts to show it was a misunderstanding as attempts to prove I was wrong. Which just felt like a further attack, rather than seeming helpful.

That is one unfortunate thing about online communication, you lose a lot of the nuances of tone, and an attack can sounds the same as an affirmation if you're not careful.